I am burnt out. Tired of being lonely with no local Autistic support network Tired of being confined to my house Tired of not being able to go places i especially miss the freeway and open road which i love and the ocean which i also love and getting to see nature, the green hills and flowers of Spring I am so Tired of not being able to reach the goals i have in life Tired of having a family who is virtually non-supportive of me Tired of being unable to take care of my own hygiene Tired of still feeling like i am on the outside even in my own community Tired of just not being able to get where i need to go in life. I am tired of being. All i want is to wake up and find out that i never lost the use of my legs that i still have my little Toyota Tercel and the nice neighbors who once used to live next to me who DID care about me I am genuinely burnt out. I want this suffering to stop. I want badly to move from this bad neighborhood. I want badly to get the surgery i need so i don’t have to wear this 24/7 horrible lump that is the size of a basketball on my left inner thigh I am tired of this trap, this jail i am in. I am crying for a real way OUT!!!!!!! Before i get much older, please.